June 24, 2108
When most people are still sleeping, I am on the road at 5 am, heading into work. Most of the time I am thinking of what it is going to take to get you guys to turn on your own headlights and see more clearly.
Friday, I decided to take my camera and show what it is like on the road before most people wake up!
Considering how my life has been that way, wake before most people on PTSD, the road was basically mine. There were people on the road before me, but we had a better chance of getting people to follow us than we do now.
Back then, they could see us easily. We had our high beams on to show the way out of darkness. Now it is like there are way too many people congesting the road and leaving us trapped behind them.
It is too hard to see where you are going, depending on the lights in your rearview mirror to show you the way. It is too hard to see when you have someone driving toward you with their high beams on and blinding you from seeing what is in front of you.
Anyway, you have control over your own headlights. Not the ones on your dashboard, but the ones in your own head.
Why drive in darkness? If you do not know what PTSD is, then that is exactly what you are doing. Sure you can move from one place to another, but do you ever find where you want to be?
You can drink or do drugs, but that only gets you numb.
You can stop talking, stay in the house and keep to yourself, but that leaves you alone. This is your battle now but just like in combat, you do not have to face this enemy by yourself.
Really strange thing happened with this video. I had the radio on and the Eagle "Take It Easy" was playing. Sure enough, right where "flatbed Ford" came in, so did a flatbed pulling off the on ramp.
Well, I'm running down the roadtryin' to loosen my loadI've got seven women on my mind,Four that wanna own me,Two that wanna stone me,One says she's a friend of mineTake It easy, take it easyDon't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazyLighten up while you still candon't even try to understandJust find a place to make your standand take it easyWell, I'm a standing on a cornerin Winslow, Arizonaand such a fine sight to seeIt's a girl, my Lord, in a flatbedFord slowin' down to take a look at meCome on, baby, don't say maybeI gotta know if your sweet love isgonna save meWe may lose and we may win thoughwe will never be here againso open up, I'm climbin' in,so take it easyWell I'm running down the road trying to loosenmy load, got a world of trouble on my mindlookin' for a lover who won't blow mycover, she's so hard to findTake it easy, take it easydon't let the sound of your ownwheels make you crazycome on baby, don't say maybeI gotta know if your sweet love isgonna save me, oh oh ohOh we got it easyWe oughta take it easy