Showing posts with label Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Show all posts

Monday, December 14, 2020

and the soul felt its worth

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 14, 2020

Wonder what it is like when you begin to heal what PTSD has harmed?

"A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices" 

When does this begin?
"...and the soul felt its worth"
Whenever I have to say what my favorite Christmas song is, it is O Holy Night, because I can listen to it all year round. We just celebrate the Birth of Christ on December 25 but the date He was actually born was not in the Bible. Scholars point to the fact about where He was born and say it was in the Spring, which would make a lot of sense. After all, we know that the Spring is when the world renews life.

"For yonder breaks, a new and glorious morn" 
And then we see a new and glorious morning, when we are actually happy we have another day ahead of us, instead of dreading it.

But how do you get to the point where your soul feels its worth? When you've done and said horrible things, had terrible thoughts, it is hard to think about that day, How do get right with God? By faith and knowing that price was paid for long before you were even born.

To me it doesn't really matter when Christ was born. I know He was and why He was born. I know how He lived, what He taught, how He died and why He died, just as I know He came back to prove that He was who He said He was....the Son Of God.

Believing that, lets us know that our souls were worth all of what He went through to save us!

When you have PTSD, you were saved. Saved by people who came to help you, because you were worth it. Saved by people who came to help you afterwards, because you were worth it. And you have everything you need to heal already inside of you, especially if you got hit by PTSD because you risked your life for someone else.

There is nothing you cannot be forgiven for but the hardest one to get forgiveness from is yourself. Once you do that, then you believe you are worth being happy about being healed.

You live a different life. More compassionate, understanding, kinder, more hopeful and have more patience for others. You love more deeply.

"O hear the angels' voices"
Because He appeared so your soul could feel its worth!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it. #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD


O holy night, the stars are brightly shining
It is the night of our dear Savior's birth
Long lay the world, in sin and error pining
'Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth
A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks, a new and glorious morn
Fall on your knees
O hear the angels' voices
O night divine
O night when Christ was born
O night divine
O night
O night divine
A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks, a new and glorious morn
Fall on your knees
O hear the angels' voices
O night divine
O night when Christ was born
O night divine
O night divine (O night divine)
Ooh, yes it was (O night divine)
Yeah, that is that night of our dear Savior's birth
(O night divine) oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah, yeah
(O night divine) it was a holy, holy, holy, oh, oh, oh
(O night divine) yes, it was

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Traditional
O Holy Night lyrics © Downtown Music Publishing, Spirit Music Group, Royalty Network 

Sunday, December 13, 2020

HANG ON! These thing take time.

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 13, 2020

HANG ON! These thing take time. Those are part of the lyrics from Needtobreathe's Hang On, and that is a message you need to reminded of when you are trying to heal PTSD, even though the song is not about PTSD.

It took time for everyone who ever healed and it will take time for you. It takes leaps of opened eyed faith to know that you can change how things are for you. You have to learn a way of healing that will take care of all the parts of you...your mind, your body and your spirit.

Things take time, so you also need patience with yourself and others. It took time for PTSD to change you and it will take time to change again. It takes time for you to understand, and it will take time for those around you to understand too. 

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it. 

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD



"Hang On"
First touch of summer, she's got your t-shirt on
Sun's going down, schools out, stars are coming on
You can rewind it, but you can't ever feel like you do tonight
Make a movie in your mind, but don't rush it
Boy, you're about to see the light

Hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling
Hang on to your love drunk original reason
Hang on to the small town you love but you're leaving
Oh you won't be a fool for so long
So hang on 
If you listen to the voices inside they won't do you wrong
You can look back over your shoulder, yeah, but don't look too long
It takes time to realize
That your life's gonna pass you by

So hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling
Hang on to your love drunk original reason
So hang on to the small town you love but you're leaving
'Cause you won't be a fool for so long

Oh, these things they take time
And all these things take time, these things they take time
And all these things I've learned, it's never a straight line
'Cause all these things take time, these things they take time

So hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling
Hang on to your love drunk original reason
'Cause all these things take time, these things they take time
And all these things I've learned, it's never a straight line

So hang on to the light in your eyes and the feeling
So hang on to your love drunk original reason
So hang on to the small town you love but you're leaving
Oh you won't be a fool for so long
So hang on

(All these things they take time)
Hang on
(All these things they take time)
Hang on
(All these things they take time)

(AZ Lyrics) 

bonus song
Who Am I

White lights and desperation
Hard times and conversation
No one should ever love me like you do
Sometimes my bad decisions
Define my false suspicions
No one should ever love me like you do
While I'm on this road you take my hand
Somehow you really love who I really am
I push you away, still you won't let go
You grow your roses on my barren soul
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
Last night, confidence was shaken
My wounds and my past was saying
No one should ever love me like you do
While I'm on this road you take my hand
Somehow you really love who I really am
I push you away, still you won't let go
You grow your roses on my barren soul
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
The way I push you through it, what you had to see
I'm a train wreck, I'm a mess, you see the best
And the worst in me
Still I can't imagine that I've learned your trust
I don't understand where your love comes from
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you
Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Nathaniel Rinehart / William Rinehart
Who Am I lyrics © Downtown Music Publishing 

Saturday, December 12, 2020

PTSD Patrol Superstition ain't the way

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 12, 2020

Do you still believe something that you don't understand? If you don't understand PTSD, then you probably believe a lot of things that are not true.




When people believe in lies, they either trust the person they heard it from...or they want to believe it, and then they suffer.

If you have PTSD, you are not mentally weak, not defective, not stuck that way, and not being punished by God. It means you survived something the others don't understand.

If you haven't learned what it is by now, that is your fault but there is a remedy for that and it is fixed by doing some basic research.

If you finally stopped denying you have PTSD and sought help, but the treatment didn't work, that does not mean you are untreatable. That is why there are so many different types of treatment.

If you went on medication that made you feel worse or you couldn't tolerate the side effects, that doesn't mean that you a beyond help. That is why there are many different medications and combinations.

If you went to a support group that didn't help, that doesn't mean you don't belong in a group, it just means you were in the wrong one. That is why there are many different groups out there.

These things are all there after over 40 years because they work! Keep looking for the one that works for  you and stop believing nonsense!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it!

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

1. "So many people have had it worse than I did. I shouldn't be complaining."
2. "My trauma defines me. It affects everything I think, feel, and do."
3. "I don't have PTSD, so what happened couldn't have been that bad."
4. "They told me this therapy would be effective for PTSD, but it didn't help me at all. There must be something wrong with me."
5. "Getting over it is too hard. I'll be stuck like this forever."

Why do people knock on wood for luck?
In many cultures, it’s a common superstition for people to knock their knuckles on a piece of wood to bring themselves good fortune or ward off bad luck. Yet while the phrase “knock on wood”—or “touch wood” in Britain—has been part of the vernacular since at the least the 19th century, there seems to be little agreement on how it originated. One common explanation traces the phenomenon to ancient pagan cultures such as the Celts, who believed that spirits and gods resided in trees. Knocking on tree trunks may have served to rouse the spirits and call on their protection, but it could have also been a way of showing gratitude for a stroke of good luck. Yet another theory is that people knocked on wood to chase away evil spirits or prevent them from listening in when they boasted about their luck, thereby preventing a reversal of fortune. Christians, meanwhile, have often linked the practice to the wood of the cross from Christ’s crucifixion.

Very superstitious,
Writing's on the wall,
Very superstitious,
Ladders bout' to fall,
Thirteen month old baby,
Broke the lookin' glass
Seven years of bad luck,
The good things in your past
When you believe in things
That you don't understand,
Then you suffer,
Superstition aint the way
Hey
Very superstitious,
Wash your face and hands,
Rid me of the problem,
Do all that you can,
Keep me in a daydream,
Keep me goin' strong,
You don't wanna save me,
Sad is the soul
When you believe in things
That you don't understand,
Then you suffer,
Superstition ain't the way,
Yeh, yeh
Very superstitious,
Nothin' more to say,
Very superstitious,
The devil's on his way,
Thirteen month old baby,
Broke the lookin' glass,
Seven years of bad luck,
Good things in your past
When you believe in things
That you don't understand,
Then you suffer,
Superstition ain't the way,
No, no, no

Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: Stevie Wonder
Superstition lyrics © Jobete Music Co., Inc. 

Friday, December 11, 2020

God's Promise I Will Rescue You

PTDF Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 11, 2020

First, we need to face some facts. Some people suck. They are the last to help anyone but the first who expect help from everyone. They refuse to lift anyone up, but expect it from everyone else. While they have a soul, just like every other person on the planet, they refuse to be moved by it to help anyone unless they can get something out of it. They seek power, money, publicity and pats on the back. You know the type...because there are too many of them out there.

But the other fact is, there are more people out there, who care. They are the first to rush to help, and the last to ask for it. Most find it easier to ask for help for someone else, instead of for themselves. When they do need help, and as for it, but it does not come, it can be more devastating for them, because they will not be able to help someone else, unless someone rescues them.



I have been running into this all my life. While I'll help everyone in whatever way I can, most of the time I don't get any. I lost count how many times someone reached out to me online and promised they would help me financially and help me reach more people, but they never did. I blamed them, not God because I know God sent them to me in the first place, or they wouldn't have bothered to reach out at all.

We have God's promise He will not abandon us, but when the people He tries to send do not listen to Him, we end up blaming God and wonder what we did wrong. We have His promise that He will send an army to help us and it is not His fault they went AWOL. Don't lose faith in Him, because He does hear your prayers. Until He can get someone to help you, He will give you peace so that you know He is there and faithful, even though people are not. He will give you strength to get through whatever it is you are up against, so that you do not give up. 

If you have PTSD, know that He is trying to get people to help you. He is trying to get them to hear your cries for help and will not give up. Take what He can provide as a blessing until those who He is trying to send, show up!

Take comfort in this beautiful song because I know I did. I woke in a bad mood things morning and was lifted up by this song and Lauren Daigle's beautiful voice Rescue!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD


Lauren Daigle - Rescue (Official Music Video) 
You are not hidden
There's never been a moment
You were forgotten
You are not hopeless
Though you have been broken
Your innocence stolen
I hear you whisper underneath your breath
I hear your SOS, your SOS
I will send out an army to find you
In the middle of the darkest night
It's true, I will rescue you
There is no distance
That cannot be covered
Over and over
You're not defenseless
I'll be your shelter
I'll be your armor
I hear you whisper underneath your breath
I hear your SOS, your SOS
I will send out an army to find you
In the middle of the darkest night
It's true, I will rescue you
I will never stop marching to reach you
In the middle of the hardest fight
It's true, I will rescue you
I hear the whisper underneath your breath
I hear you whisper, you have nothing left
I will send out an army to find you
In the middle of the darkest night
It's true, I will rescue you
I will never stop marching to reach you
In the middle of the hardest fight
It's true, I will rescue you
Oh, I will rescue you

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Jason Ingram / Paul Mabury / Lauren Daigle
Rescue lyrics © Essential Music Publishing 

Thursday, December 10, 2020

Let The Sun Shine In

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 10, 2020

Worlds align this winter solstice: Look for Jupiter, Saturn in December skies
“Alignments between these two planets are rather rare, occurring once every 20 years or so, but this conjunction is exceptionally rare because of how close the planets will appear to one another,” Hartigan said.

“You’d have to go all the way back to just before dawn on March 4, 1226, to see a closer alignment between these objects visible in the night sky.”

Astronomers call what we'll witness on Dec. 21 a "conjunction." From asteroids or moons to planets and stars, a conjunction is when two objects in space appear to be close to each other as observed from Earth. In the reality of space, they're still hundreds of millions of miles apart.

Ever since I read that Jupiter and Saturn were going to align, I keep thinking about the 5th Dimension and Aquarius. In the song it is Jupiter and Mars but there is a part of the song that talks about friends walking away. 

If your friends walked away, they were not really your friends. Safe bet, if it you noticed one of your friends struggling with something, you'd ask them what is going on...let them know you were ready to listen and then offer to help them.

Struggling to heal PTSD can suck. It can feel as if you are doing it all alone. That is why you need to find a support group so you can be with people like you. Then you can not just find support and comfort, you can deliver it to them as well.

Let this next year be a new beginning for you when you let the sun shine in to replace the darkness you have been living with.

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it.

#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD





Aquarius / Let the Sunshine In
The 5th Dimension 

When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars

Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius
Age of Aquarius
Aquarius
Aquarius
Harmony and understanding
Sympathy and trust abounding
No more falsehoods or derisions
Golden living dreams of visions
Mystic crystal revelation
And the mind's true liberation
Aquarius
Aquarius
When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius
Age of Aquarius
Aquarius
Aquarius
Aquarius
Aquarius
Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in
Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in
Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in
Oh, let it shine, c'mon
Now everybody just sing along
Let the sun shine in
Open up your heart and let it shine on in
When you are lonely, let it shine on
Got to open up your heart and let it shine on in
And when you feel like you've been mistreated
And your friends turn away
Just open your heart, and shine it on in

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: James Rado / Gerome Ragni / Galt Mac Dermot
Aquarius / Let the Sunshine In (The Flesh Failures) lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC 

Wednesday, December 9, 2020

"Your demons come to light and your mind is not your own"

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 9, 2020

"Your demons come to light and your mind is not your own" but it doesn't have to be that way. PTSD demons are only trying to finish the job on you after you survived whatever caused them to invade your life.

They try to take over your days, but you get busy, ignore them as much as you can, but there is a price to pay for that. 

Demons get stronger and wiggle their way into every relationship you have. That is why a lot of Vietnam veterans reported reaching retirement age and ended up shocked they suddenly got hit by PTSD. They didn't notice how their many marriages fell apart because it was easier to just blame the line of ex-wives they left behind and kids who stopped talking to them. As for sleep, turns out they were passing out instead of falling asleep. The nightmares came but they stuffed them so they could ignore them the same way they ignored everything else during the day.

Your life doesn't have to be that way. When you start to heal, the demons lose power over your life. They stop being able to penetrate every part of you and you #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD so that you are able to enjoy your life again.

Much better than letting the demons control you and it is time YOU GOT TO WIN!

Remember, it is your life....get in and drive it!




Lonely is the night when you find yourself alone
Your demons come to light and your mind is not your own
Lonely is the night when there's no one left to call
You feel the time is right, say the writing's on the wall
It's a high time to fight when the walls are closin' in
Call it what you like it's time you got to win
Lonely, lonely, lonely your spirit's sinkin' down
You find you're not the only stranger in this town
Red lights, green lights, stop and go jive
Headlines, deadlines jammin' your mind
You been stealin' shots from the side
Let your feeling's go for a ride
There's danger out tonight, the man is on the prowl
Get the dynamite, the boys are set to howl
Lonely is the night when you hear the voices call
Are you ready for a fight, do you wanna take it all?
Slowdown, showdown waitin' on line
Show time, no time for changin' your mind
Streets are ringin', march to the sound
Let your secrets follow you down
Somebody's watchin' you baby, so much you can do
Nobody's stoppin' you baby, from makin' it too
One glimpse'll show you now baby, what the music can do
One kiss'll show you now baby, it can happen to you
No more sleepin', wastin' our time
Midnight creepin's, first on our minds
No more lazin' 'round the TV
You'll go crazy, come out with me
Feelin' lonely
Lonely is the night
Feelin' lonely
Lonely is the night
Lonely, lonely, lonely

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: William H Squier
Lonely is the Night lyrics © Spirit Music Group 

Tuesday, December 8, 2020

PTSD Patrol Undefeated

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 8, 2020

There seems to be some confusion on spiritual healing. It is not a matter of going to church or thinking that you are supposed to be "sinless" or perfect.

If you read the Bible at all, you'll know that it is full of a people who screwed up in their lives and yet God used them to make miracles happen.

The fact that you survived something that could have killed you, is a miracle in itself, but too many think it is punishment for something you did wrong...and God sent it to you. How do you pray or talk to God if you think He did it to you? You can't but you can turn to Him once you understand that is not the way it happened.

Every heartache, every doubt you ever had, was something that Jesus knew all too well. He also knew what it was like to be betrayed by those you trusted. To do the right thing and then have people turn away from you, as much as He understood what it was like to feel abandoned by God.

Even as the Son of God, He still asked for help from other people. What makes you so different that you think you shouldn't ask for help too, especially if PTSD hit you because of your job?

It doesn't matter if you screwed up in your life, you can start making a miracle in your own life so you can turn around and begin one in the life of someone else.


Ephesians 6:10-18 New International Version
The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.
So if you think you cannot talk to someone here on earth, then talk to Him.  He doesn't want to hear words you read out a book or just repeat something that is not from your heart. He can actually hear what is in your heart, so speak to Him from there and tell Him you are turning to Him for help.


Incubus - Undefeated 

Could there be another universe?
One that wasn't always out to getcha?
And it breaks my heart a little bit
That here I'm like a sleepwalker
Half alive and hanging by a thread
I'm not dead yet
I'm not dead yet, no
I'm bent but not broken
And I'm not dead yet, no
Yeah
Maybe there's a poem in reverse
Spoken and it holds me out forever
Man it breaks my heart a little bit
But love is like a blind archer
Tryin' to shoot an apple off my head
I'm not dead yet
I'm not dead yet, no
I'm bent but not broken
And I'm not dead yet
Not yet
We're undefeated, bent but not broken
No they ain't seen nothing yet
We're undefeated, bent but not broken
Not dead yet
We're undefeated, bent but not broken
No they ain't seen nothing yet
We're undefeated, bent but not broken
I'm not dead yet
I'm not dead yet, no
I'm bent but not broken
And I'm not dead yet (ooh)
I'm not dead yet (ooh)
I'm not dead yet (ooh)
I'm bent but not broken (ooh)
And I'm not dead yet (ooh)
No

Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: Brandon Boyd / Michael Einziger / Christopher Kilmore / Benjamin Kenney / Jose Pasillas
Undefeated lyrics © Hunglikeyora Music 

Monday, December 7, 2020

Don't raise the white flag and surrender to PTSD

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 7, 2020

There is a lot of confusion on PTSD. Those who have it, but don't know anything about it, deny it hit them. They let other people blame whatever they want, because humans always need something to blame. 

The most logical conclusion is that you have become a jerk...you found someone else, or any other reason they can find to justify the way you are acting. Since you won't tell them, you only have yourself to blame for what they assume. Maybe you don't even know you have it. Isn't it time you found out what is making you do the things you do?

Start with what the MAYO Clinic has and figure out if it is what has been changing you.
If you survived a traumatic event or multiple ones....this could apply to you.
Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that's triggered by a terrifying event — either experiencing it or witnessing it. Symptoms may include flashbacks, nightmares and severe anxiety, as well as uncontrollable thoughts about the event.
Most people who go through traumatic events may have temporary difficulty adjusting and coping, but with time and good self-care, they usually get better. If the symptoms get worse, last for months or even years, and interfere with your day-to-day functioning, you may have PTSD.
Getting effective treatment after PTSD symptoms develop can be critical to reduce symptoms and improve function.


Symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder 




Then you have to decide if the people in your life are worthy of you being the best person you can be. 
You are a survivor and there is no way in hell that should mean you should suffer after beating the "devil" of the event that could have killed you. Don't let it destroy you or the people in your life. Fight back...fight to #TakeBackYourLife.

Do what you can to heal and then, make it up to them. You are worth it! They are worth it.

Dido - White Flag (Official Music Video)
156,579,626 views •Oct 2, 2009 

Lyrics
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
Destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of it's over
Then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Dido Armstrong / Richard W. Jr. Nowels / Rollo Armstrong
White Flag lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc, Spirit Music Group, BMG Rights Management, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Songtrust Ave 

Sunday, December 6, 2020

I Am Broken Too!

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 6, 2020

I am so pissed off right now my head is ready to explode! This is not going to be one of those cheery post with a chair dancing song, I picked I Am Broken Too by Killswich Engage for this reason.

I was on Facebook and a veteran friend of mine I've known for decades, posted about "22 veterans committing suicide today" and I flipped out! After 38 years of posting, tracking, treating veterans spiritually, educating and advocating, it meant nothing! Over 500 videos on YouTube, 3 books and way too many posts to count on Wounded Times along with my older sites and I had to read something like this from someone I know? WTF!

If you need help, veteran, family member or anyone dealing with PTSD, I know what it is like to feel lost and alone. I know what PTSD does as a survivor of over 10 events. What it was like for my veteran husband and what it was like for the veterans whose lives I saved! Above all, I know what it is like to need help and NOT FIND IT! So yes, I've been broken, beaten down and still willing to do the best I can everyday because this is something that is in my DNA after all these years.

If you need help, email me woundedtimes@aol.com or call me 407-754-7526. Read the posts on PTSD Patrol and Wounded Times.


You carry this weight trying to cover your mistakes
To make it seem like nothing could ever break you
But I see right through, 'cause I am broken too
In all the same places as you
And if you needed proof, I'll reopen my wounds
Reopen my wounds, yeah
I see myself in you (in you)
I know you can make it through
If you needed proof, I'll reopen my wounds
In all the right places for you
So now you see the truth that you are broken too
I'll reopen my wounds for you
I keep making the same mistakes, just to feel alive again
It's the only way to break on through
So stop numbing all the pain
'Cause it just won't go away (won't go away)
If you only knew how much I needed you
And if you needed proof, I'll reopen my wounds (my wounds)
In all the right places for you
I can see the truth 'cause I am broken too
I am broken too (broken just like you)

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Adam Dutkiewicz / Jesse Leach / Joel Stroetzel / Justin Foley / Mike D'Antonio
I Am Broken Too lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd. 

Saturday, December 5, 2020

Roll With It

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 4, 2020

Today the view from the PTSD Patrol garage is a little different because it is snowing and I wanted to let you see it instead of just looking at my face and messy garage.

In case you don't know why I do these videos from the garage, it is because PTSD Patrol is all about helping people understand the vehicle they live in, as much as they understand the one they drive.

You decide when to drive, how fast you go and where you want to go to. You may not understand how that vehicle works, but you know enough to get you from one place to another. You don't have to totally understand PTSD to be able to do the same in your life. All you need is a basic understanding so you realize the power you do have over it.

The only limit is the one you allow. 

If you have been working on healing, there is a time to just rest and "roll with it" and that is why the feature video is Steve Winwood, Roll With It.
"When life is too much
Roll with it, baby
Don't stop and lose your touch
Oh no, baby
Hard times knocking on your door
I'll tell them you ain't there no more
Get on through it
Roll with it, baby"
Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it....most of the time but there is a time to just relax!
#BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD
 

When life is too much
Roll with it, baby
Don't stop and lose your touch
Oh no, baby
Hard times knocking on your door
I'll tell them you ain't there no more
Get on through it
Roll with it, baby
Luck will come and then slip away
You've gotta move bring it back to stay
You just roll with it, baby
Come on and just roll with it, baby
You and me
Roll with it, baby
Hang on and just roll with it, baby
Hey
The way that you love is good as money
I swear by stars above sweet as honey
People think you're down and out
You show them what it's all about
You can make it
Roll with it, baby
When this world turns its back on you
Hang in and do that sweet thing you do
You just roll with it, baby
Hey-hey
You just roll with it, baby
Come on and just roll with it, baby
You and me
Just roll with it, baby
Roll with it, baby
Hey-hey
You just roll with it, baby
You and me
Just roll with it, baby
Hang on and just roll with it, baby
Hey
Now there'll be a day
You'll get there, baby
You'll hear the music play
You'll dance, baby
You'll leave bad times way behind
Nothing but good times on your mind
You can do it
Roll with it, baby
Then you'll see life will be so nice
It's just a step up to paradise
Just roll with it, baby
Hey-hey
You just roll with it, baby
You and me
Just roll with it, baby
Hang on and just roll with it, baby
Hey-hey
Come on
Roll with me, baby
Hang on, baby
Come on
Roll with me, baby......


Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: Will Jennings / Steve Winwood
Roll With It lyrics © F.s. Music Ltd., Blue Sky Rider Songs, Emi Music Publishing France, F S Music Ltd, Warner-tamerlane Pub. O/b/o F.s. Music Ltd., Irving Music, Inc. O/b/o Blue Sky Rider Songs, Stone Agate Music Corp

Friday, December 4, 2020

PTSD Patrol save a life

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 4, 2020

I do these videos everyday but if no one is watching them, they can't help anyone. Today I'm trying something different and putting the message into the video itself instead of writing it. Hope you like it and share the messages that can actually save lives!



Wide awake while the world is sound asleepin'
Too afraid of what might show up while you're dreamin'
Nobody, nobody, nobody sees you
Nobody, nobody, nobody would believe you
Every day you try to pick up all the pieces
All the memories, they somehow never leave you
Nobody, nobody, nobody sees you
Nobody, nobody, nobody would believe you
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows how it's killing you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There's a kind of love that God only knows
There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love
You keep a cover over every single secret
So afraid if someone saw them they would leave
But somebody, somebody, somebody sees you
Somebody, somebody will never leave you
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows how it's killing you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There's a kind of love that God only knows
There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love
There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love
For the lonely, for the ashamed
The misunderstood, and the ones to blame
What if we could start over
We could start over
We could start over
Oh for the lonely, for the ashamed
The misunderstood, and the ones to blame
What if we could start over
We could start over
We could start over
'Cause there's a kind of love that God only knows
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There's a kind of love that God only knows
There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love
There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love
God only knows where to find you
God only knows how to break through
God only knows the real you
There's a kind of love that God only knows

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Joel David Smallbone / Jordan Reynolds / Josh Kerr / Luke Smallbone
God Only Knows lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc, Audiam, Inc 

I was there on the day that you were changed
You were scared and prepared for the heartbreak
Everything you knew faded out of view
Stole a piece of you
If I could, oh, I would be a hero
Be the one who would take all the arrows
Save you from the pain, carry all the weight
But I know that you're brave
Fight on, fighter
Don't let anyone steal your fire
Fight on, fighter
The Spirit is alive inside ya, yeah
There's a part that you hold that you lock down
Let it breathe, give it wings, set it free now
Time to make ya walk, break the prison bars
Show them who you are
Fight on, fighter
Don't let anyone steal your fire
Fight on, fighter
The Spirit is alive inside ya, yeah
Stronger than you than you ever thought
I know you're stronger
Braver than you were before
You know you're braver
Oh, no, you don't have to be afraid
Together we'll face it
So don't ever stop no matter what
'Cause you're gonna make it
Fight on, fighter
Don't let anyone steal your fire
Fight on, fighter
The Spirit is alive inside ya, yeah
Fight on, fighter 
Don't let anyone steal your fire
Fight on, fighter

Songwriters: Ben Backus / Ben Glover / Joel David Smallbone / Luke Smallbone / Mark Campbell / Tedd Tjornhom

Tuesday, December 1, 2020

Miracles Out Of Nowhere

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
December 1, 2020

With so much suffering in this country, a lot of people are asking "Where is God?" The truth is, He is all around us.

When people decide that they want to make a positive difference in this world, to help someone else, that is a miracle. It is a miracle when doctors and nurses show up everyday to save lives, even though they are risking their own, fighting to keep people alive. Some of them are even arguing with the nurses saying the pandemic is not real, right before the tubes go into their mouths and down their throats.

It is a miracle when patients leave the hospital after hundreds of days fighting for their lives and go back to their families.

Miracles happen when people decide that they will do what they can to help people find food, and they stand loading cars with food that others had donated, to total strangers, so they will not go hungry,

If you have PTSD, that means you are a survivor, and that in itself is a miracle. You may not feel like it is if you are still suffering, but I can assure you, that once you start healing, you see that miracle even stronger, And then, you can be a miracle for someone else, because you know what they are going through and can help them believe in the miracle of their own life.

When people act out of love and kindness, that is a miracle and each one of those acts, comes from God. He uses us to answer the prayers of others. If you act on what is needed, then you are acting on His behalf!

Remember...it is your life....get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD

This is about a nurse working in a cancer unit. One of her patients was having a hard time, so she started to sing to her. On this days, the woman got bad news....and the nurses act of kindness was recorded. When you watch this report, think about all the other times that are not captured on video....

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An emotional video of a Vanderbilt University Medical Center nurse singing to a terminal cancer patient has gone viral.

Miracles Out Of Nowhere
Song by Kansas

On a crystal morning I can see the dewdrops falling
Down from a gleaming heaven, I can hear the voices call
When you comin' home now, son, the world is not for you
Tell me what's your point of view?
Hey there Mister Madman, what you know that I don't know
Tell me some crazy stories, let me know who runs this show
Glassy-eyed and laughing, he turns and walks away
Tell me what made you that way?
Here I am just waiting for a sign
Asking questions, learning all the time
It's always here, it's always there
It's just love and miracles out of nowhere, out of nowhere
Tell me now dear mother, what's it like to be so old
Children grown and leavin', seems the world is growin' cold
Though your body's ailin' you, your mind is just like new
Tell me where you're goin' to?
It's so simple lying right before your eyes
If you'll only look through this disguise
It's always here, it's always there
It's just love and miracles out of nowhere
It's just love and miracles out of nowhere
Yeah
I sing this song a hundred, maybe a thousand years ago
No one ever listens, I just play and then I go
Off into the sunset like the western heroes do
Tell me what you're gonna do?
Here I am, I'm sure to see a sign
All my life I knew that it was mine
It's always here, it's always there
It's just love and miracles out of nowhere
It's just love and miracles out of nowhere
Out of nowhere, out of nowhere

Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: K. Livgren
Miracles Out Of Nowhere lyrics © Emi Blackwood Music Inc., Don Kirshner Music 

Monday, November 30, 2020

Getting by with a little help from real friends

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 30, 2020

Don't you know I'm gonna make it with my friends? (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
I promised myself I'd get by (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Said I'm gonna try and not work too hard (Ooh)
Well I, yeah yeah yeah
(Could it be anybody?)
Oh there's gotta be somebody
Don't treat me wrong Lord
Joe Crocker

...but what if you don't have real friends you can turn to to help you? That happens a lot more times than people want to admit. I know it has happened to me. I thought some people were my friends but it turned out, they only wanted me around when they needed something, but were never there when I did. If you have one or two real friends, then you are blessed. It has more to do with who you meet than who you are. If you need help with PTSD, then seek out a support group. That is where you do matter to people who understand you, and they want to help you as much as they want your help..and then you get by with a little help for your real friends!

Remember, it is your life...get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD



What would you do if I sang out of tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
I will try not to sing out of key
Oh, baby I get by (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
All I need is my buddies (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
I say I'm gonna get high (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Oh yeah (Ooh)
What do I do when my love is away?
(Does it worry you to be alone?)
No no
How do I feel at the end of the day?
(Are you sad because you're on your own?)
I tell ya I don't get sad no more
Gonna get by with my friends (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Yeah yeah, I'm gonna try (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Keep on getting high, oh Lord (Ooh)
I need somebody to love
(Could it be anybody?)
All I need is someone
That's just where I'm going, yeah
Somebody knows that's where I'm showing
Baby
Said I'm gonna make it with my friends (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Oh, I'm gonna keep on trying (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
I'm gonna keep on trying (Ooh)
I'm certain it happens all the time, yeah
(What do you see when you turn out the light?)
I can't tell you but it sure feels like mine
Don't you know I'm gonna make it with my friends? (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
I promised myself I'd get by (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Said I'm gonna try and not work too hard (Ooh)
Well I, yeah yeah yeah
(Could it be anybody?)
Oh there's gotta be somebody
Don't treat me wrong Lord
Oh yeah yeah
Said I'm gonna get by with my friends, yeah (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Oh, yes I'm gonna keep trying, now (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Keep on trying with my friends (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
Oh, I'm never gonna stop there, oh (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
I'm gonna keep on trying, yeah yeah (Ah, with a little help from my friends)
I'm getting high, I'm gonna make time, oh Lord (Ooh)
Gonna get by with my friends
Oh, I'm gonna get on by, yes I'm gonna get on by, my Lord
I'm gonna tell them all about it, I'm gonna tell them all, yeah yeah

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: John Lennon / Paul McCartney
With A Little Help From My Friends lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC 

Saturday, November 28, 2020

Fighting is a choice we all have to make at one point in our life or another

PTSD Patrol
Kathie Costos
November 28, 2020

I never thought I would ever use the word Saint and Alice Cooper in the same sentence, but here it is. He came out with a song about not giving up, Don't Give Up. Fighting is a choice we all have to make at one point in our life or another. In this case, it is deciding if you want to fight for the lives of others. 

Do you only focus on your own pain, or search your soul to see what you can do to change the lives of others for the better, because you've been there and know what it is like. What it is like to be hopeless, afraid, lonely and discouraged, but you also know what it was like when someone came along and helped you feel better about your own life.

When Thanksgiving came, there were people all over the country, lining up at food distribution sites. Not to get food, but to give it out to those who would otherwise go hungry. When musicians take the time to come up with songs like this one from Alice Cooper, and Steven Perry in the other video, they do it, not for the publicity, but to use their publicity to make things better.

Right now, all over the country, there are people stepping up to make a positive difference. There are some out there who do not believe there is a plague and deny they are contributing to it, because they cannot see how they can make a difference in a positive way to help others through it. Try to not focus on them because they are not happy or loving people. They are miserable and spread their misery as fast as the plague.

When you have PTSD, you run into that type of person all the time. They deny what PTSD is and can make it feel as if the world is crashing in on you. Don't spend your time with the people knocking down the rocks on your head, but focus on those securing the walls to keep you safer.

Miracles happen everyday because people care and know where you are so they can help you, Seek them out instead of hiding from them. They can't help you if they don't know you need it.
 
Remember it is your life...get in and drive it! #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife from #PTSD




Yeah, I know you're struggling right now
We all are, in different ways
It's like a new world that we don't even know
It's hard to sleep
Even harder to dream
But look, you've got 7 billion brothers and sisters all in the same boat
So don't panic
Life has a way of surviving and going on and on
We're not fragile, and we sure don't break easy
You know it's so hard to cope
When you're just hoping there's hope
We're all hanging on by a thread
We're all staring at the razor's edge
But we're not going to step off the ledge
No!
Our enemy is a cold, indiscriminate monster
It doesn't care if you're old or newborn, it exists to kill
You and I are nothing to it
It has no heart or soul or conscience
Do we fear it? Yeah
Do we cower before it? Hell no
We're the blood and guts human race, and we win!
You know that it's right
So we just gotta fight
Yeah, we're all hanging on by a thread
We're all staring at the razor's edge
But we're not going to step off the ledge
No!
We're all hanging on by a thread
We're all staring at the razor's edge
But we're not going to step off the ledge
No!
This is Alice Cooper in Detroit
Let's keep fighting
Don't give up

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Alice Cooper / Bob Ezrin / Tommy Henriksen
Don`t Give Up lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group 

Under neon lights, we claim this town
No one can take us down
No, not tonight
City Boys and City Girls
Runnin' Wild
Burning like a fallin' star
Golden stardust, that's what we are
Young voices carry on
Come together in the same ole song
We're still here
We're shadows fallin'
The night is callin' again
We're still here
Where love is runnin'
The night is calling, again
(Brother to brother)
Another night, another town
Walkin' my heart around
Same old choices, again
Like so many tears in the rain
Will they remember your name
Young hearts reach fearlessly
In the night
We're still here
We're shadows fallin'
The night is callin' again
We're still here
Where love is runnin'
The night is calling, again
(Sister to sister)
We're all together
(You know, I care)
We are
(We will)
Always
(Be together)
We're still here
We're shadows fallin'
The night is callin' again
We're still here
Where love is runnin'
The night is calling, again
(Brother to Brother)
Brother to Brother
(Sister to Sister)
We're still here
Where love is runnin'
The night is calling, again
v Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Brian West / Steve Perry
We're Still Here lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC 

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